Thursday, May 17, 2007 10:20 PM
i'm tired. not physically, but mentally. not being able to concentrate recently. lost interest in everything, just EVERYTHING! urge to do all the stupid stuff, losing all the faith and confidence.

my heart is getting weaker, i can feel that. but what is exactly on your mind? i still cannot guess. is been a long time since i go read a girl's mind because as time pass, studies is becoming more and more important? or maybe in poly, not many of the people got r/s problem. that's good.. hahaha.

wells, *confused* tell me what to do. are promises really meant to be broken? to me, promises will be kept in my heart. no matter how hard it is, i will do my best to fulfil the promise that i held. so what IF my heart were to turn green? what would you do? sigh. sometimes, i just wish to heck care everything. but each time, i failed badly. because i felt the need to be there for you if you fall.

today i like offend alot of people. joel, shirley? lebin? anzel? kaos. what exactly am i doing? argh. i'm angry with myself! seriously do. why can't i just make it happen once? i'm hurting myself. not you hurting me. sian. SiaN. SIAN!

got no mood to blog now. chaoz~~